One Year On.

It's my anniversary today!

one year ago today I went to get my biopsy results and got the shock of a lifetime.

But, rather than get all melancholy about what a big year it has been... I feel like celebrating all the great things that have come of this...

Firstly, I now have a bank of wigs for any future fancy dress parties I get invited to... my costumes will be based around which wig I can bring out of retirement
(who am I? if you have been watching Heros... "Save the Cheerleader, Save the world!", James is Arthur Dent from HHGTTG - "Don't Panic!").

The other things are all going to sound really corny.. but;

I feel I have learnt a lot about myself and have surprised myself that I am actually quite strong to get through this and I have just got on with it really (not that you can do much else).

James and I have been made stronger - not that we were not close or strong before but in some ways we have got through this together, never once wishing the other would have acted in some other way or said something else, not once with a bad word to one another. We know we can face anything in the future now.

I've made new friends. This may sound silly but I have got to know others who have had breast cancer, especially younger girls and although the circumstances I have got to know them are not what you would wish for it's nice to know they are out there. I've recently enjoyed a lovely evening out over dinner and a couple of glasses of wine with my new breast-friend Sarah which i really enjoyed. Long may that friendship last!

Breast cancer is now a part of me. It has shaped who I am now and who I will be in the future. I am certainly not going to shut this year off and never talk about it again, I am quite proud of getting through this. In some ways I am a different person with slightly different worries now. But I still let the little things worry me and I still can enjoy a good gossip about the trivial things in life!